This past week has been full of love and excitement. I have felt so uplifted and supported in everything I’m doing, and it feels great to spread positivity and light to those around me. My Calendar Challenge has brought so much spontaneous energy into my days and it’s really inspiring to see people be engaged and encouraged by something I have created. I have had a really good feeling about this year, 2018, and already I can tell that magical and mystical things are taking place in my life. I know that things are changing just by observing my approach to my spirit and other spirits around me. I am beginning to see things differently, and my feelings and thoughts about particular circumstances have evolved. I no longer feel the need to compromise myself for what “looks” better and I have no interest in forcing things that nature is not helping to grow. Nature is helping me to grow, and I am completely present in that process.
As you move through different stages in your life, you begin to understand more about time, and divine energy and losing and winning. Oprah once said that “There are no mistakes, because you have a supreme destiny. There is a calling in your life, a supreme destiny, and your job is to feel that, to hear that, to know that. Everything is leading to the same path. There are no wrong paths. Failure is just that thing trying to move you in another direction. So you get as much from your losses as you do from your victories.” I am understanding more and more everyday, the role I have in my success. It is just as much in my hands as it is in the hands of the world. My job as a human living is to go with the wind, drink the water, keep my feet on the earth, and fan the flames of the fire. I am whole.
“Consistency is not perfection. It is simply refusing to give up.”
Life these past couple of weeks has felt like a mad dash to something ultimately more important. I keep reminding myself that everything I’m doing is pushing me further and further in the direction of my dreams, but I don’t always know if that’s the case. Some things feel like busy work, to please somebody else, or make a little cash, or to replace boredom with movement. My challenge to myself over the past week has been to be still long enough to hear God talk to me; to receive the answers to my questions, and it’s happening slowly. Slowly but surely.
I had the opportunity this week to spend time with other women who are facing similar challenges. I really gained, just mentally from listening to their experiences and stories. I look forward to continuing the conversation with them in coming weeks.
I have been finding healing less and less in other people and more in my individual practices that keep me motivated and prepared. I’m learning that everyone won’t always have the answers, and to lean on and depend on yourself as much as possible before running straight to others for guidance. How can we expect anyone to meet us where we are, if we have not met ourselves where we are?
“It’s time to step out on faith, I’ve gotta show my faith. It’s been illusive for so long, but freedom is mine today. I’ve gotta step out on faith, It’s time to show my faith. Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found…Strength, courage, and wisdom, And it’s been inside of me all along. Strength, courage, and wisdom, Inside of me.”
Mmmmm. Everything in due time. Everything in due time.
This post is a few dates late, but everything is due time. That’s for life, period. Sometimes things don’t happen at the exact time we plan for them to, but they always happen on time. I am grateful for another week of life. I feel free in my journey through time and space. I am learning more about myself everyday.
This week I had my very first event for Sarahn Says. I will share more details in a separate journal entry. I wanted to create a space for myself, to just be still and open to life’s moments, and that is what my Sacred Woman Winter is about for me. Solitude, salubrity, and structure. Stillness and openness. I don’t want to have any obligation to myself other than following my word, giving myself what I know I need, and being love and light at all times. I’m understanding a very big part of growing and flourishing is allowance for what is and what is not. Understanding what is and is not in my control. Being true to my process and place on the journey to deeper self-love and self-knowledge.
This week for me was about doing just that. Learning new things about myself and flying to new heights as my view of myself and the world expands. And now that I am on the other side of consciousness, I can allow for wisdom to take front stage in my actions moving forward. I am extremely prepared to take on bigger roles, spend more time focus on my dreams, and spend more moments centered and at peace with myself and others. I am ready in every way to grow in all ways that the universe allows me to in this moment.
My goals for next week are to write down and be fully present with my steps moving forward for this season, this year and beyond. I want to take every opportunity for growth, big and small, and use all moments as a time for self-exploration, self-assurance, and self-reliance.
I AM A SACRED WOMAN. WATCH ME WIN. HEAR ME ROAR. SEE ME SOAR.
It’s only right that one uses the tool of reflection to shine light forward. That is in fact what reflecting is. *11:09pm on 1/3/18 is when I typed these very words.* Hmmm…
2017 wasn’t the most exciting year of my life. Truth be told, half of the year feels like a blur. Beside’s my graduation celebration, it’s hard for me to remember one meaningful thing that happened in June, and September’s warmth made fall go by all too quickly. The last time I took a good look at the calendar it was December 8th, and now its 2018. Although that flash of time might seem normal to some people, something inside me wants so badly for 2018 to be different. I want to feel my skin this year. I want life to marinate this year. Most of us say we’re looking forward to this year being special and full of new growth. But every year, no matter the trials and triumphs, is special and full of growth. Some years are filled with more fears and tears, while others more smiles and sunshine, but growth is present none the less. I’d like to believe that 2018 will bring sunshine into my life, and even more, that this year will continue to teach me that light is within, no matter the weather or the darkness.
I guess I should have made this post about a week ago. Reflecting on 2017 already feels like dwelling on the past, but for whatever reason, this moment didn’t feel true some days ago. Now seems like the right time to live in my sur name ‘Sankofa’, meaning, ‘ to return to the source and retrieve what you have lost.’ Now is a good time to look at and resource last year and look ahead to what can and will hopefully be one of the most teachable years of my life.
I spent over 10 months of age 22 in 2017. 22 is the highest number in numerology named ‘the Master Builder’, symbolizing turning dreams into realities, confidence, ambition and discipline. I remember setting a real intention of 22 being a year where I was committed to start building the life I wanted for myself. But I’m not perfect… Some spring evenings were spent indulging in the juvenile gifts of senior year. Some summer days were spent sleeping in. Some fall mornings were spent avoiding eye contact and skipping breakfast. Two December nights, I cried myself to sleep. I was present through it all however, and to some extent I did add to the framework of my life. I traveled, graduated from college, started making money as a life coach, and continued my career in radio. And even though the last few months of 2017 weren’t the easiest for me, I feel accomplished thus far in my journey of ‘adulting’ and growing wiser.
We can probably all admit that 2017 wasn’t the best year we’ve ever had. Every year has its’ fair share of ups and downs, triumphs and challenges, but the most important thing is being grateful for being alive, understanding the polarities of time and the fragility of life. And if you hold those things close to your spirit, nothing really seems so bad. With that being said, I am proud to say that 2017 brought no regrets to my life.
I’m sharing some things I learned in 2017 in hopes that you too will reflect on what they might mean to your life. And sharing what I hope to learn in 2018, in hopes that you too might see these things as something you want to channel this year or that they will remind you of a previous lesson you learned and now have the wisdom from it to show you survived. Onward and upward we go…
A few things I learned about myself in 2017…
1. I’m a lot more creative than I give myself credit for. 2. I have a need to maintain control in every area of my life (still working on it!) 3. I inspire people, near and far. 4. I’m just about good at anything I decide to put my mind to. 5. I don’t work well with anxious or pessimistic people. 6. I’m more forgiving now that I ever thought I would be when I reached this age. 7. I can actually take care of living things…MY PLANTS *tears*. 8. I feel most connected to the world between the hours of 4-7pm. 9. My Spanish is not too shabby! 10. My younger years have taught me lessons I am now beginning to use (this means I’m getting old LOL). 11. I can get tears of joy and growth out of ALMOST all my friends. ♥
And some other things I learned about life in 2017…
1. No one is going to treat you better than you treat yourself. 2. Taking care of your hair is an essential part of maintaining a healthy lifestyle. 3. Good company can be found in random places. 4. No matter how anyone treats you, you always have a choice in how you respond. 5. Everyone comes into your life when they are supposed to. There is no such thing as bad timing. Even without the fairytale ending, it’s always the right person at the right time. 6. People are thinking about you and sending you good vibes even when you think they’re not. 7. People don’t owe you anything and most people don’t care how you feel, but that’s okay! Life is too short for pity parties. You cry, and pray and sleep it off. And the next day, you don’t feel that bad for yourself anyway. 8. Sometimes you need to talk about things, until there’s nothing left to say. 9. Your flaws do not define your beauty. 10. The people you love most are always at the closest distance to hurt you. 11. Life is shaped like a helix. Things happen in cycles and patterns, time moves in circles, but we’re never in the same place at the same time.
What I look forward to learning about myself in 2018…
1. How MORE flexible and strong my body can be while practicing yoga daily. 2. How to do everything I can for myself, before asking anyone else for help. 3. How to get through a whole book, any book, in one week. 4. What it feels like to live without emotional distraction for 1 whole year (still dating and getting to know people)! 5. How my writing will improve with practice, practice and more practice. 6. How to rock a wig without feeling insecure. 7. The benefits on my body of drinking a little under a gallon of water a day. 8. How to connect to the love within anyone and everyone I come in contact with. 9. How to choreograph a dance piece about an experience in my life without thinking my story isn’t worth telling or that my art isn’t developed enough. 10. How to not talk about things I’m planning to do, until I already have them in motion. 11. How to avoid all distraction in the midst of any task.
And lastly, what I look forward to learning about life in 2018…
1. How to take action on what I want, no matter the mental or literal obstacles that appear to be in my way. 2. How to successfully gain and retain clients for my coaching business. 3. How to set things free, and not wait for them to come back. 4. The beauty of living at home and all the ways I can contribute to my household. 5. What people my age, in my field of work are doing to prosper and grow. 6. How to budget and save more efficiently. 7. How to see the actions of those close to me as an external part of who I truly am inside. 8. How to embody the Solar Plexus Chakra everyday. 9. How to be kind and generous to those who have hurt me. 10. Consulting with my spirit before I make every important decision. 11. How to give myself the proper time and space to overcome all pain and confusion.
There were definitely a few occurrences that made me feel small and undeserving this year. My challenge to myself for 2018 is to not be defined by those wounds and to confront them with all the strength, courage and wisdom I have in my mind, body and soul. There were even more occurrences that made me feel joyous and proud to be who I am. Another challenge to myself for 2018 is not discrediting the obstacles I have overcome and the self-love I have continued to nurture. The ultimate goal: TO APPEAR AS EVERYTHING THAT I AM, AND NOTHING THAT I AM NOT, GIVING MYSELF PERMISSION TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF MYSELF AT ALL TIMES, FORGIVING MYSELF FOR MISTAKES MADE, AND KEEPING ‘GOD’FIDENCE IN MY HEAD, HEART AND HANDS.
Sarahn Says – One way to fall in love with yourself, is to spend some time alone. Solitude comes easier for some of us then others. Depending on who we are, where we are, and what’s going on in our lives, we can embrace it with open arms or avoid it like the plague. The reality is, at some point you won’t really have a choice. In order to accomplish your goals, both small and large most efficiently, you’ll have to step away from those around you. It’s not anything to feel down about. You don’t even have to brainstorm all the possible things that could be happening in your absence. Enjoy the time you have to yourself. It’s only at this time when you can do all the crazy, whimsical and impulsive things that make you who you are. You can talk to yourself about the things you’re not ready to share with others, reflect on the past more clearly, and find solutions to some problems you’ve been having. You can become in tune with your thoughts and more aware of your actions, both of which are really important in growth. Not only does spending time alone free you from most distractions but it shows you how much physically, mentally, and spiritually you can accomplish on your own. So remind yourself that you are good company, give your quieter thoughts an arena to be louder, and fall in love with yourself in the process. #sarahnsays