“Most of us are angry, most of us are strangely, more alike than we like to believe. Most of us are empty, most of us are simply, more alive in the scenes of our dreams. Then there’s you. You’ve got something I’ve been wanting, ooooh, you’re so new. You’re my salvage, you’re my balance, oooh, you’re so new.

Most of us are hurting, most of us are searching, for someone to love, someone to understand. Most the time I’m fighting, multiple voices residing in my head. Then there’s you. You bring silence to my violent truth, yes you do. Oooooh, you’re my salvage, you’re my balance, oooh, you’re so new.”

I feel so close to God. This week I was able to accomplish so many of my goals and move forward on my journey to greatness. Before I have felt pressured to act in certain ways knowing that wasn’t exactly what my spirit wanted or where my love lived. But more and more it feels so natural to do certain things and just be. I love it! I love the energy I have even when I don’t get sleep. I love the fulfillment I get from being alone. I love the newness of my relationship with myself and the most high. It feels so pure and genuine and full.

When I first heard the lyrics to Jhene Aiko’s ‘New Balance’, I thought of love lost, and love found. I haven’t won every battle in love. Loving myself, loving others, being a constant reflection of love, are things I am continuously learning through trial and error. But as I am finding my ‘New Balance’ of love, the presence of God is everywhere inside of and around me. So when I think about what it means to find balance, a new balance, that silences the violence of the chaos of my life, I feel so at peace and purposed in just being who I am, accepting and encouraging myself every step of the way.

“Consistency is not perfection. It is simply refusing to give up.”

Life these past couple of weeks has felt like a mad dash to something ultimately more important. I keep reminding myself that everything I’m doing is pushing me further and further in the direction of my dreams, but I don’t always know if that’s the case. Some things feel like busy work, to please somebody else, or make a little cash, or to replace boredom with movement. My challenge to myself over the past week has been to be still long enough to hear God talk to me; to receive the answers to my questions, and it’s happening slowly. Slowly but surely.

I had the opportunity this week to spend time with other women who are facing similar challenges. I really gained, just mentally from listening to their experiences and stories. I look forward to continuing the conversation with them in coming weeks.

I have been finding healing less and less in other people and more in my individual practices that keep me motivated and prepared. I’m learning that everyone won’t always have the answers, and to lean on and depend on yourself as much as possible before running straight to others for guidance. How can we expect anyone to meet us where we are, if we have not met ourselves where we are?

“It’s time to step out on faith, I’ve gotta show my faith. It’s been illusive for so long, but freedom is mine today. I’ve gotta step out on faith, It’s time to show my faith.
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found…Strength, courage, and wisdom, And it’s been inside of me all along. Strength, courage, and wisdom, Inside of me.”

Mmmmm. Everything in due time. Everything in due time.

This post is a few dates late, but everything is due time. That’s for life, period. Sometimes things don’t happen at the exact time we plan for them to, but they always happen on time. I am grateful for another week of life. I feel free in my journey through time and space. I am learning more about myself everyday.

This week I had my very first event for Sarahn Says. I will share more details in a separate journal entry. I wanted to create a space for myself, to just be still and open to life’s moments, and that is what my Sacred Woman Winter is about for me. Solitude, salubrity, and structure. Stillness and openness. I don’t want to have any obligation to myself other than following my word, giving myself what I know I need, and being love and light at all times. I’m understanding a very big part of growing and flourishing is allowance for what is and what is not. Understanding what is and is not in my control. Being true to my process and place on the journey to deeper self-love and self-knowledge.

This week for me was about doing just that. Learning new things about myself and flying to new heights as my view of myself and the world expands. And now that I am on the other side of consciousness, I can allow for wisdom to take front stage in my actions moving forward. I am extremely prepared to take on bigger roles, spend more time focus on my dreams, and spend more moments centered and at peace with myself and others. I am ready in every way to grow in all ways that the universe allows me to in this moment.

My goals for next week are to write down and be fully present with my steps moving forward for this season, this year and beyond. I want to take every opportunity for growth, big and small, and use all moments as a time for self-exploration, self-assurance, and self-reliance.

I AM A SACRED WOMAN. WATCH ME WIN. HEAR ME ROAR. SEE ME SOAR.

Sarahn Says – We all have a main weakness or distraction that proves to be most difficult for us to avoid. While we have every other aspect our lives together (or we think we do), there’s that one thing that always seems to be the common denominator in you not having it all together. While there are several things that get it the way of this, we can manage some things more than others. We can control certain areas of our lives easier than others, and in the more difficult areas lies the problem. For some of us, it’s the distraction of significant others, that always seem to come in and out of your life. For others, it’s family-related; maybe a specific family member or family issue that just won’t figure itself out. Sometimes, it’s the temptation of drugs and/or alcohol that was a problem in your past and is always trying to become a problem in your present. It can even just be ones lack of self-esteem that continues to bring them down whenever they’re trying to pick themselves up. Pay attention to the reoccurring issues in your life and try to pinpoint the one main weakness or distraction that always throws you off of your track. In doing this you are one step closer to maintaining control over this “weakness”. This control allows you to have a larger perspective on the way you operate and makes your ability to progress that much easier. If your main weakness is something you can eliminate from your life, try your hardest to do so. Although its not that easy or simple, understand that so much of your potential and growth is being hindered by this “weakness” and therefore its removal is only as important as your growing process. If your main weakness is something that is not as easy to get rid of, try distancing yourself from this weakness or changing the way you interact with it. #sarahnsays